Life And Death

It's only now, that I look back and realise how close to death I came on thursday. I had a seizure. And i think i may have been resusitated (though no-one has said). Its scared the shit out of me. I put my family, my boyfriend through HELL.

I keep getting flashbacks.

I'm lucky that he called for an ambulance. He saved my life.

I'm making a promise here, i promise i am NEVER going to do that again.

I have a second chance at life. A second chance to live. And i'm going to make the most of it.

Close Call

So i've now expereinced the real hell that is an overdose. I OD on god knows what (40 tablets of various meds) on thursday night, and only got out of hospital yesterday, Apparently during my time there i had a seizure. I have no memory of this.

But i do remember the blood tests, still have the bruises from them.

I actually nearly died. And that scares the SHIT out of me. Never again.

From this pooint forward i'm in RECOVERY. I will get better.